I'm a Christian...

Current mood: calm
Category: Life

When i say im a christian, im not shouting "I am saved", im whispering "i get lost", that is why i choose this way. When i say im a christian, i dont speak of this with PRIDE, im confessing that i stumble, and need SOMEONE to be my guide. When i say im a christian, im NOT trying to be strong, im professing that i am WEAK, and pray for STRENGTH to carry on. When i say im a christain, im not bragging of success, im admitting i have FAILED, and i cant EVER pay the debt. When i say im a christian, im not claiming to be perfect, my flaws are WAY too visible, but God believes im WORTH it. When i say im a christian, i STILL feel the sting of pain, i have my share of HEARTACHES, which is WHY i seek HIS name. When i say im a christain, i do not wish to judge, i have NO authority, i only know ... im LOVED!

I miss my kids! :(

Current mood: sad
Category: Life

ok so i know that for the past week (or two... or three...) i've been gushing about how i cant wait for school to be over and how my kids (students) were starting to get on my nerves and i couldnt wait to get rid of them for the summer... well that was all true at the moment, BUT... tonight was our end of school banquet and as i watched them all dressed up, just sitting there, performing the play (it was great!) and coming up to recieve their awards (i was SO proud!) i got really sad... as they hugged me and told me they'd miss me and they loved me, i really wanted to cry... so i just hugged them back really tight and held them for that extra second, ruffling their perfect hair, stealing a kiss... I MISS THEM ALREADY! i really love those little rascals... they are just so darn cute! sure, i dont miss yelling at them to sit down, stop talking and do their work, but i miss those sweet moments of laughing and playing together, getting love notes from them and unexpected hugs... just enjoying them... i love them... man, what am i gonna do this summer without them?! :( i cant believe i'm actualy saying this, but i cant wait for school to start back up already!

God is GOODER than I thought

Current mood: tired
Category: Life

i like this title... but that's not quite what this blog is gonna be about...

so i went to greenlake today and i had some food with me to munch on while i was reading and this crazy squirrel comes up like super close sniffing around acting as if its gonna pounce on me (it must have been a boy lol haha jk) so i threw a piece of bagel at it and it ran away to eat it and then came back super close again i was kinda scared lol so i threw so more bread to it and it ran away to eat it and that happened like 4 times until this lady came whistling and feeding the squirrels peanuts they were eating them right out of her hand... crazyness... i was thinking this would never happen in RI... wow... crazy squirrels...

oh and my baby sis looks EXACTLY like me when i was a baby... its crazy... she is like identical.... how cute!

so yea... kind of a random blog... but God really is good... gooder than i thought... my cousin called today saying she will take a part in sponsoring my Japan trip... YAI! Thank you JESUS!

Encounter (the Russian one)

Current mood: ecstatic
Category: Life

i didnt think it was possible for God to change my life anymore than He already has... but He did! i can hardly believe it... i'm still breathless from His goodness and glory...

i went with specific expectations... big expectations... i wanted a breakthrough... i wanted deliverance.... i wanted healing... i wanted God to answer my questions and breathe fresh life and vision into me... and He totally met me there and fulfilled all i needed, wanted, and then some! of course, what did i expect? He is GOD! i recieved such a new revelation of His love for me, its breathtaking... i have such joy, such freedom, such peace... i can hardly believe all He has done for me! its quite incredible... i love Him so much! more than ever (i didnt think that was possible either lol)...

talk to me if you want to know more, its just too much emotion ad information to type out on a blog, but i do want to say this:

my favorite part was when the Encounter ended and all the adults left, about 10 girls (including myself) stayed behind at the camp to spend the last night there and until 2 AM all we did was praise and worship for 3 hours... girls from 12 to 23... we just sang our hearts out to God, prayed, cried, and spent time loving on Him and thanking Him for all he has done for us this weekend... it was heavenly... God came down and met with us yet again... what can I say... He cant resist the praises of His people... :)