Too many thoughts, too little time...

Current mood: calm
Category: Life

Sorry guys this will be another random one... try to keep up ;)

i tried to go through and clean out all my folders/papers/binders from high school/college the other day and it was a very interesting experience.

i save EVERYTHING. what can i say, i love memories.

well the memories that my cleaning spree has brought back have been mixed...

i found old papers, pictures, notebooks, notes, poems (that I wrote), printed emails, and just lots of STUFF... some made me smile, some made me laugh, some tear up, but others made me flustered, embarrassed and horrified... lets just say I've come a VERY long way in a LOT of things... 2 things in particular stood out: well ok 3: my attitude, my writing and my relationship status

1. i found a paper i wrote in HS and it downright disturbed me that i could write something like that and have my teacher read it... i think i even read the paper out loud to the class... i wanted to die with embarrassment... how could i have? wow...

2. i was always a good writer but i could really see my writing improve over the years... its pretty cool how i could see my grades, my style and the teachers comments go from good to great to excellent. one particular professor in college was really fond of my writing and i do have to admit it was with good reason. he really built me up and encouraged me and have always left a LOT of comments and feedback and input on my papers. He even wanted me to change my major to English. In short, he really impacted me as a student and as a writer. He has inspired me and I owe a great deal to him. I want to look him up and let him know that.

3. i was dating in HS and my first 2 years of college and i believe that had an effect on me as a student (in a good way) i found some old e mails of my then bf trying to help me with my school work... it was very cute... all of a sudden i remembered what it was like to have a bf and be in a relationship. even though it wasn't a godly one, it still brought back fond memories of being loved, missed, adored and downright cared for lol i have to say i had a GREAT bf (up until the point he broke up with me anyway)

i found other random stuff too... i love school and i love learning and i love education in general... i know i was born to be a teacher (among other things)

i was always a great student and i'm very grateful to God for that. Learning comes easy to me and i know it's a gift... Thank you...

Guy friends... i guess theres this tv show called my boys or something like that... its about having guy friends that are just that: friends, boys, brothers

i miss that... i miss my boys from RI... funny how none of them are saved, but yet they were/are truly my boys... just friends... i really love them and miss them and miss hanging out, playing v ball and going to UNO's together. i just miss UNO's lol

seriosuly though... why is that so rare among Christians? i want to talk to you does not equal i want to marry you... why cant guys and girls talk, hang out and be friends...? ok fine i know why. but still...

other thoughts... its funny how when some things become more important other things become less important...

I LOVE MY LIFE!!!!