Current mood: 
Category: Travel and Places
Japan was amazing... I cant write a blog about it, it would be way too long (even for me) so if you really want to know, ask me.
 | Currently listening : United We Stand By Hillsong United Release date: 04 April, 2006 |
Current mood: 
Category: Life
cant sleep yet again...
went by the house today
visited John and Vita
saw the killer's myspace
thoughts spinning around in my head...
trying to keep it together
Current mood: 
Category: Life
yea i totally need to be sleeping right now, but i have way too much on my mind... so here i am... doing YADA stuff (YP) and blogging away in hopes that if i spill my heart out the stuff in it might somehow make sense... so here goes nothing...
J woke me up this morning (ok so it was very late morning, but still) and i spent about an hour on the phone with him just speaking wisdom and hope into his life. i totally got to share God's view on relationships (and why his failed) and even how God is working on that area in my own life and why I'm making the choices I'm making right now. it was really cool how J was responding to everything i said... i know God is softening and healing his heart. he wants to come visit and i hope he does soon... once i get this boy to GC or YP i know he's SO getting saved! even if i have to grag him to the altar lol :)
My good day continued as I met B at Volunteer Park for some catch up chillaxin time in the sun. we were sitting on that "black sun" thing right across from the SAAM, by the water, just talking about God and what was going on in our lives when "the guys" started showing up. at first i thought that it was just a few friends meeting up for a run, but 3 turned into 7 and then 10 and before we knew it we were literally surrounded by like 20 men in short running shorts with perfect bodies (and some perfect faces). there was something wrong though... the way these guys greeted each other was not very... "manly"... close, full body hugs and pecks on cheeks are fine for girls, but if guys do it it can only mean one thing... Yup... well what did i expect? this was Capitol Hill after all... so when it finally hits me i text B (i couldnt say anything because they were so close) "do you realize we are surrounded by gay men?" and she looks at me and responds like its nothing "yup!" so then i bust out laughing because now i think that its the coolest, funniest thing ever! I mean seriously! just picture it! so then the only woman that was there comes over to us and asks us if we're there for the run because she is not used to seeing many other girls there. so i have a moment of panic because i dont want anyone to think that B and I are gay, but i relax as soon as i realize that I'm wearing my WWJD cross necklace. we start talking to the woman and the guys around us and they tell us that they are a part of FrontRunners Run with Pride club of Seattle (check out http://www.seattlefrontrunners.org for more info) and we happen to be right smack in the middle of their meeting place. Side note: it took B and I a while to decide where to meet, so now i'm thinking, God, You are SO funny, this is totally You! we continue talking to each other (being really friendly and all) and they tell us more about the club and invite us to check them out and join them next time. SO HERE'S WHAT I'M THINKING: i absolutely, completely and totally love gay men... they are the funnier, friendlier, cooler version of metro guys minus the snooty attitude. so yea, i would LOVE to spend a couple of hours in their company once a week showing them the love of God! what an amazing ministry would that be?! these people probably have a completely messed up view of Christians, Christianity and God. they need to know and be around people who can show them who God is without any prejudice or condemnation. so what do you think? are you in? i'm seriously going to pray about this... God knows I can't run for nothing, but I love these guys already and i really feel that this is something God has shown me for a reason... its on my heart now and i wont be able to rest until i do something about it...
Then i came home and my mom told me the latest development in the Kirkalnd fire: it was a murder... so i lost it... all i could think about was John and Vita and how amazing they are and how much i love them and i cant even imagine what they are going through... losing your family to a fire is bad enough, but to a violent, brutal murder? how much more pain can a family handle?
Lastly... tonight's GC service was right on the money lol... even in light of my new fast... it was pretty random, but i guess thats how God works...
one thing's for sure... i'm changing the world with or without a man... my life will not be put on hold because of my feelings and desires... if God wants every guy in my life to be "just a friend" because that's how i can serve Him better, then that's fine with me. if by being single i can further the kingdom of God, then that's what i want... Lord Jesus, give me the strength LOL! :)
 | Currently listening : Time Well Wasted By Brad Paisley Release date: 16 August, 2005 |
Current mood: 
Category: Life
my best friend J from RI called me today completely devasted and brokenhearted because he broke up with his girlfriend... i've never seen him like this...
my principal's (who is also my mentor/youth pastor/substitute dad) wife's (who is a dear friend) two sisters died in a fire yesterday along with two kids... i just found out today at school... a tradgedy beyond words... the father/husband is fighting in Iraq...
at the homeless outreach tonight i saw living/existing conditions that are unimaginable and the pain of hopelessness in people's eyes that cant be described... i saw anger, disillusionment and despair as people tried to hold on to their last shred of dignity. people high and drunk in an effort to escape reality... none of it was pretty...
everytime i talk to one of my peeps from RI i hear the same thing... life is full of struggles...
last night i pretty randomly downloaded and listened to a sermon on suffering, how it matures us in our walk with Christ... and today i got to see some suffering... all people suffer, Christians or not, bad things happen to all people, myself included. its all in how we respond to it i guess... God is always in control and nothing catches Him by surprise.
when my non-Christian friends complain to me about their lives and especially their relationships, its easy for me to see why they are not happy and why things go wrong for them in their lives. its much harder to accept when things go wrong in the lives of people that love God and are serving Him.
so what am i to do? my heart goes out to all my friends/loved ones and even strangers that i see hurting... what can i do? although prayer is most powerful, i'm a woman of action as well lol. can laying aside my own problems, struggles and feelings and just loving on the hurting, letting them know youre there, that you accept them as they are, that youll do anything possible to ease their pain be enough? can a smile, a kind word, a hug, or even just being there on the phone and not saying anything show people God's love?
i want to do that... i want to be the one showing poeple God's love when they doubt it the most...
 | Currently listening : Ripen By Shawn McDonald Release date: 07 March, 2006 |
Current mood: 
Category: Parties and Nightlife
The Geo Party was off the hook! Seriously, I had so much fun! All the food, drinks, friends, games, music, beautiful weather and the gorgeous view man, it was perfect! Pretty much everyone was there so I got to hang out with all my favorite peopleJ! YAI! It was my first time at Gas Works, I cant believe I didnt know about it before! It will be frequented now though lol! So naturally, if you get all the coolest people together, its gonna be sick! And it was! We had some VERY intense volleyball games and water balloon/bottle fights! It was quite the bonding time let me tell you... boys are such boys lol... and I got soaked! Still dont know what that was all about... Ill have to ask Andy tomorrow... its a good thing it was sunny and warm so we all dried fast. It was really cool to see everyone having fun and acting like kids though (although it was more natural for some than others lol)
So throughout the day I was getting text messages about the amazing Kenny Chesney concert I was missing in RI... its ok, I went last year, but still... nice to know my peeps were thinking about me and wishing I was there... awwww... lol ok Im over it! Honestly, I wouldnt have traded this Geo Party for anything! Some incredible new memories were made J
 | Currently listening : Salsa, Merengue, Mambo! By Various Artists Release date: 25 April, 1995 |
Current mood: 
Category: Music
What got you into country? A boy lol. I dated a cowboy from
How many cowboy hats do you own? Two!
Boots? None yet sadly
Belt Buckles? Those are more for guys
Songs that move you to tears: There are a lot lol! Tim McGraws Dont Take the Girl and Shes My Kind of Rain, Keith Urbans Tonight I Wanna Cry, Rascal Flatts These Days, there are more I just cant think of them right now!
Most romantic songs: umm like half of them! Seriously, they are all romantic! If I had to choose though Rascal Flatts Love You Out Loud and pretty much all their songs! All of Keith Urbans songs especially Raining on Sunday and Somebody Like You, sorry I cant choose I love them all!
Best dance songs: Kenny Chesney! And Dierks Bentley of course! And Tim McGraw! There are too many to choose from I cant pick just a few! She Thinks My Tractors Sexy is #1 though!
Which do you prefer? Depends on my mood really, but I like the fast happy ones the most although sentimental love song is always welcome
Favorite song right now: Another tough one hmmm just because its summer and I drive a lot, Kenny Chesneys Summertime
Songs you know all the words to: pretty much all lol or way too many to list!
Country concerts under your belt: Brad Paisley, Dierks Bentley (I met him!), Rascal Flatts, Tim McGraw, Keith Urban, Kenny Chesney, Terri Clark, Gretchen Wilson, and a bunch of small artists that opened for them.
Tailgates: one unofficial one lol
Favorite Male Artist: Dierks/Kenny/Keith sorry I cant choose
Favorite Female Artist: Terri Clark/Leanne Womack/Shania sorry cant choose either
Ever been to a rodeo? Yes, once, it rocked!
Ever been to
What are you listening to now? Rascal Flatts My Worst Fear (a tear jerker for sure!)
 | Currently listening : Melt By Rascal Flatts Release date: 29 October, 2002 |
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