Sunday, June 18, 2006

I'm a Christian...

Current mood: calm
Category: Life

When i say im a christian, im not shouting "I am saved", im whispering "i get lost", that is why i choose this way. When i say im a christian, i dont speak of this with PRIDE, im confessing that i stumble, and need SOMEONE to be my guide. When i say im a christian, im NOT trying to be strong, im professing that i am WEAK, and pray for STRENGTH to carry on. When i say im a christain, im not bragging of success, im admitting i have FAILED, and i cant EVER pay the debt. When i say im a christian, im not claiming to be perfect, my flaws are WAY too visible, but God believes im WORTH it. When i say im a christian, i STILL feel the sting of pain, i have my share of HEARTACHES, which is WHY i seek HIS name. When i say im a christain, i do not wish to judge, i have NO authority, i only know ... im LOVED!

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

I miss my kids! :(

Current mood: sad
Category: Life

ok so i know that for the past week (or two... or three...) i've been gushing about how i cant wait for school to be over and how my kids (students) were starting to get on my nerves and i couldnt wait to get rid of them for the summer... well that was all true at the moment, BUT... tonight was our end of school banquet and as i watched them all dressed up, just sitting there, performing the play (it was great!) and coming up to recieve their awards (i was SO proud!) i got really sad... as they hugged me and told me they'd miss me and they loved me, i really wanted to cry... so i just hugged them back really tight and held them for that extra second, ruffling their perfect hair, stealing a kiss... I MISS THEM ALREADY! i really love those little rascals... they are just so darn cute! sure, i dont miss yelling at them to sit down, stop talking and do their work, but i miss those sweet moments of laughing and playing together, getting love notes from them and unexpected hugs... just enjoying them... i love them... man, what am i gonna do this summer without them?! :( i cant believe i'm actualy saying this, but i cant wait for school to start back up already!

Sunday, June 11, 2006

God is GOODER than I thought

Current mood: tired
Category: Life

i like this title... but that's not quite what this blog is gonna be about...

so i went to greenlake today and i had some food with me to munch on while i was reading and this crazy squirrel comes up like super close sniffing around acting as if its gonna pounce on me (it must have been a boy lol haha jk) so i threw a piece of bagel at it and it ran away to eat it and then came back super close again i was kinda scared lol so i threw so more bread to it and it ran away to eat it and that happened like 4 times until this lady came whistling and feeding the squirrels peanuts they were eating them right out of her hand... crazyness... i was thinking this would never happen in RI... wow... crazy squirrels...

oh and my baby sis looks EXACTLY like me when i was a baby... its crazy... she is like identical.... how cute!

so yea... kind of a random blog... but God really is good... gooder than i thought... my cousin called today saying she will take a part in sponsoring my Japan trip... YAI! Thank you JESUS!

Saturday, June 3, 2006

Encounter (the Russian one)

Current mood: ecstatic
Category: Life

i didnt think it was possible for God to change my life anymore than He already has... but He did! i can hardly believe it... i'm still breathless from His goodness and glory...

i went with specific expectations... big expectations... i wanted a breakthrough... i wanted deliverance.... i wanted healing... i wanted God to answer my questions and breathe fresh life and vision into me... and He totally met me there and fulfilled all i needed, wanted, and then some! of course, what did i expect? He is GOD! i recieved such a new revelation of His love for me, its breathtaking... i have such joy, such freedom, such peace... i can hardly believe all He has done for me! its quite incredible... i love Him so much! more than ever (i didnt think that was possible either lol)...

talk to me if you want to know more, its just too much emotion ad information to type out on a blog, but i do want to say this:

my favorite part was when the Encounter ended and all the adults left, about 10 girls (including myself) stayed behind at the camp to spend the last night there and until 2 AM all we did was praise and worship for 3 hours... girls from 12 to 23... we just sang our hearts out to God, prayed, cried, and spent time loving on Him and thanking Him for all he has done for us this weekend... it was heavenly... God came down and met with us yet again... what can I say... He cant resist the praises of His people... :)

Monday, May 29, 2006

GOD IS SO FRIGGIN' GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current mood: ecstatic
Category: Life

"Lord, You are GOOD and Your mercy endureth forever..."

i dont know why this keeps surprising me every time it happens, but God just proves Himself over and over and over and over and over (get the point?) to be so faithful and loving and just so GOOD! i'm really just in awe of His goodness and grace and faithfulness to love me and take care of me! He walked me through the valley of the shadow of death, He carried me through the deep waters and did not let me drown. I was in the fire, but i was not hurt... He delivered me and saved me and came through on His word... He comforted me in my pain and restrored my joy... He did what i thought wasnt possible... He works all things out for good... nothing is wasted with Him... He has a purpose for everything and His timing is perfect... always... I don't know what the future holds but i'm not worried... i trust him fully and completely because i know He loves me and wants the best for me and He will work all things for my GOOD because I love Him and am called according to His will and purpose! AMEN! GOD IS GOOD!

Monday, May 8, 2006

Who Created Evil?

Current mood: contemplative
Category: Religion and Philosophy

Who Created Evil?

As you read this, I challenge you to really let it's meaning sink in.

This eloquently answers one of the profound questions of life.

Did God Create Evil?

The university professor challenged his students with this question:

"Did God create everything that exists? "

A student bravely replied "Yes, he did!"

"God created everything?" the professor asked.

"Yes sir," the student replied.

The professor answered, "If God created everything, then God created

evil since evil exists, and according to the principal that our works

define who we are, then God is evil."

The professor was quite pleased with himself and boasted to the students

that he had proven once more that the Christian faith was a myth.

Another student raised his hand and said, "Can I ask you a question

professor?"

"Of course," replied the professor.

The student stood up and asked, "Professor , does cold exist?"

The professor replied "Of course it exists. Have you never been cold?"

The students snickered at the young man's question.

The young man replied, "In fact sir, cold does not exist. According to

the laws of physics, what we consider cold is in reality the absence of

heat.

Everybody or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits

energy, and heat is what makes a body, or matter, have or transmit

energy. Absolute zero (- 460 degrees F) is the total absence of heat.

Cold does not exist. We have created this word to describe how we feel

if we have no heat.

The student continued. "Professor, does darkness exist?"

The professor responded, "Of course it does."

The student replied, "Once again you are wrong sir. Darkness does not

exist either. Darkness is in reality the absence of light. Light, we can

study, but not darkness. In fact we can use Newton's prism to break

white light into many colors and study the various wavelengths of each

color. You cannot measure darkness. A simple ray of light can break into

a world of darkness and illuminate it.

How can you know how dark a certain space is? You measure the amount of

light present. Isn't this correct? Darkness is a term used by man to

describe what happens when there is no light present."

Finally the young man asked the professor. "Sir, does evil exist?"

Now uncertain, the professor responded, "Of course, as I have already

said. We see it every day. It is in the daily example of man's

inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence

everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but

evil."

To this the student replied, "Evil does not exist sir, or at least it

does not exist unto itself.

Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a

word that man has created to describe the absence of God.

God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man

does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that

comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no

light."

The professor sat down.

The young man's name ---- Albert Einstein

May today there be peace within you.

Japan

Current mood: hopeful
Category: Travel and Places

hey guys...

so i have an opportunity to go to Japan for a mission trip in July... my very first one... and i really want to go...

i know i'm called to be a missionary and i know God will use this trip to teach me and prepare me.

I know He will also provide a way for me to pay the $2,300 needed.

So I'm asking for your help... to sponsor me, to help me out... anything helps... Thanks guys! i love ya lots! God bless!